Orbit

I see rays of sunlight through your window 
And feel your breath across my body like wind 
Swirling sand across the desert floor before rain.
I surrender to your skin, and sometimes
Surrendering to someone else feels like victory against myself 
Because then I no longer keep telling my feet to keep running.
Carry me, they never tell you 
How good it feels to give up.
It’s almost like my heart wants to be absorbed into someone else’s gravity,
Spin me, look,
I’m fragile and beautiful and twirling comes naturally
Like Saturn’s rings, dancing, my breath 
Will cling to the edge of a planet that never asked me to stay.
Like gravity
I feel you pull on parts of me as soon as you’re close
And even though you’ve lost your orbit my mind cannot lose you, why is this.
Sometimes I wonder when Jupiter’s moons will realize they aren’t circling the sun
Maybe they got caught like me, instantaneously
By something they saw glow for a moment 
The stars say, don’t you see it
It lights your whole face every morning
I wake up and wonder
When my heart will find the sun 
I wake up alone
And see rays through my window
Today I will keep running
Today I will try to grow large enough, on my own
To be pulled from the planets
And spun by what truly
Gives me
Light.